So there’s a lot I can’t do.

I don’t want to name them, because that’s just ruining my self-image.

But I need to confront myself in order to assess what needs changing.

Sometimes, it’s like I’m using these words to feel good about myself.

When really, I’m using them to beat around my problems.

I’ve always had a problem with control.

What I can control, I abuse.

What I can’t control, I complain.

What’s the deal?

Why am I like this?

Keep talking, Christen.

Get it all out.